Sometimes I wonder...

Just some random thoughts...

I feel as though I'm at a weird juncture in my life...its as if with every step I take forward I realize how I grow and change...and I my decisions today affect my world tomorrow. I've always known this...but I'm maturing, I'm realizing that all the thoughts in the world don't equate practice and action...all good intentions can just be that, intentions without manifestation.

Relationships are are like rubber bands...you can only stretch them so far before they snap back or just plain break. How do you pick and chose which band you're willing to break? Or rather...is this something that just happens? The bands get old, fragile and weathered and after awhile its like you're willing for them to just pop so you can start all over again?

Why is grief the way it is? My uncle passed away in March...and while I know thats not forever ago, I can't seem to grasp why some days hit me harder than others..why some days the lil things just set me off and the tears start running, and then there are other days when I think of him and can't stop laughing...where the grin is glued to my face and I can't wipe it away.

I'm on the edge of something new...not totally unfamiliar, in my mind I've been there many times before, but this time I'm sure the stop isn't going to pass me by. The bus is going to slow down, I'm going to pull the cord...and you know what, this time I'm getting off. This time I'm reaching my destination.