tangents

I thoroughly enjoyed my three day weekend! Friday night…hmm, what did I do Friday night?? Hmm, seems like I don’t remember! HA!! Oh yes, now I remember…I got home, took a bubble bath and read Harry Potter. Scott lit a candle and brought me a cocktail!! How cute is that?!? I spent the rest of the evening hanging out with good friends in the garage.
Scott and I celebrated our three month wedding anniversary on Saturday. Before he got home I flooded the garage with the washer, talk about good times! Thank goodness we have a bunch of towels at home!! Scott got off of work and we went to the laundromat. We can be doing anything or nothing together and I still have a good time.

That evening a bunch of us went to BFL for the Grand Reopening/Three Year Anniversary Party. I had a good time partying with my homies! I’m glad Amber and Schanelle came;)

Sunday was our Big Hillbilly Ho Down BBQ!! My mom, Eric, Michelle, the boys and a bunch of our friends were there. Scott bought me a pool for the front yard and I had so much fun playing with my nephews….and then later trying to empty the water out I slid and nosedived in! Go me!

Monday was spent with Carla and her familyJ and then later Scott and I came home for some pool time of our own. Talk about to water babies! Originally we planned on going back over to Mamasan’s, but then we just opted for chilling at the house. Neither one of us wanted to drive and I was content with being a bum at home. It felt good to veg!! I blared some Toby from the garage and we sat on the front yard and watched all the fireworks in the neighborhood! I’ve never seen that many fireworks any one area. All sorts of fireworks lit up the sky and the streets and driveways were sparkling as well. It was then that I had a moment…you knew that was coming didn’t you, I mean, I’m the girl that finds meaning in just about everything!

So as a woman, I sat in my front yard, wearing pants and no bra…and I was like wow, it feels good to be an American. Then I started thinking about my surroundings. I live in a predominantly Latino community and they were fully celebrating too. I despise bigotry, stupidity and racism of all sorts. Sure, messicans love to party…but that’s not just it. Regardless of our color, or culture heritage, I know they were happy for the same reason I was. We live in a free country. Sure…I could go off on some tangent about how power is futile and the Masses are ignorant…and in the end maybe Foucault’s theory of Biopower is correct, but it’s not worth it. I’ve debated with myself over and over again about the American Dream and how it is a fraud…but that’s not either.
So I’ve decided…let me break it down.
Given – American Dream is a self fulfilling prophesy, one of those, if you believe you can, you can kinda things.
Given – Our country has some issues (An unjust war, racial bigotry, sexism, big business, education, and a whole bunch of other shit)
Concluded – I’d never want to live anywhere else. Sure, I want to visit a kazillion places, but in the end, there’s no place but home. There’s no other country that compares to the spirit of the American people.

My two political heros have always been Benjamin Franklin and Frankin Roosevelt. I find it ironic that FDR was named after Ben Franklin…Too bad Scott doesn’t like the name Benjamin, and yeah, no kid of mine is going to be named Franklin! Each of these two men stood for thinking outside of the box, to pushing our country, to utilizing our potential, for having faith in the American People….and now, what the fuck do you call the sort of leadership we have now? Big business exploitation, to using civilians in some sort of global chess game? We have men and women in Iraq fighting for what? Freedom, justice? What? For the love of all that is holy, I’d really really like to know…I mean, hello, isn’t major combat over? I’m still waiting for an intelligent comprehensive coherent argument for us still being there. Forget telling me why we went there in the first place (I know the original “lie” well), but if anybody out there could tell me why we’re still stuck in a hot desert, why we’ve lost excess of 1700 people, and why we’re staying there, I’d really like to fuckin know.

And now…its time for me to go to lunch…more to come later.