My mom said that to me when I graduated high school, and I remember agreeing with her. I had everything laid out…in my mind every detail was accounted for, and when I arrived to a new stage in my life I knew the stage directions, in fact I think I had them memorized. My master plan was ingrained in my head, and at the new start of each new phase I had a road map complete with a color coded legend. In the last few years I’ve veered away from the master plan, I realized that wasn’t the life I wanted. Every season is a new adventure; every new phase in my life is approached with wonder, with newness, and with a renewed optimism.

I drove to work with the sun in my eyes this morning…instead of being annoyed, I was excited that it was a new day. I woke up this morning with this zest for life I can’t explain. I remembered my mom’s lame saying about glasses, it was like instant recall on my part, and you know what, that’s exactly how I felt. My future is DAMN bright, and that makes me incredibly happy. It’s like I’ve rediscovered the yellow brick road…

Happiness isn’t a destination, its an adventure, a reward, but most of all its peace within yourself. There’s been quite a few naysayers in the past few months, and I’ll admit they’ve gotten me down. Some despicable things have been said about my character, and who I am, and what I’ve supposedly done…and you know what I’m human, it hurt, and it continues to hurt when people I don’t know come up to me and say, I heard about you...and you know what I have an answer - FUCK IT. I know who I am, I know I’m a good person, and I know the truth, and you know what, that’s all that matters.

Tonight Scott and I have a DATE and I can’t wait! I’ve definitely felt like Scott and I haven’t had an abundant amount of “us” time lately. With my busy schedule, then faire, moving to the house, buying the new bed and then Amber’s wedding, we haven’t had any extra money. This if the first time we’re both getting paid in the last month and a half that we don’t have a big expense to worry about. I’m very much looking forward to tonight. Carla has this really pretty black dress she’s had for awhile and I have a feeling is going to look stellar on me! (I hope anyways!) OH, and I think I may even wear heels!! Aww…how I adore being in love and a goof! Its by far the BEST feeling in the world!

Last night Schanelle came over and we hung out in the garage. I love the new house…but there’s a fondness in my heart for our garage. Its like the “meeting place”. There’s been tears, darts, laughter, cigarettes, stories, a cop, some alcohol, the mullet manager, secrets and friendship. Once faire is over, I can’t wait to get everything in order! Not that it isn’t already pimp…but its only going to get better! Just wait for the disco bar!